the temptation
it’s nagging, tugging at my heart. i haven’t felt it in quite sometime, it almost seems foreign. but how quickly it settles in and feels natural. i swore i left this tendency behind with my desire to be grown up, to be established, to be responsible.
but at this exact moment, i don’t want any of those things. and the bitch of it is, this temptation [that i’m deliberately being ambiguous about] came out of left field, and i don’t have any way of either suppressing it nor succumbing to it.