closer to lift-off
opportunities are surrounding me, and for the first time in over six months, they seem to be good ones. ones worth pursuing. ones that could let me lead a life that i’ve been dreaming of. that enviable way of life that my better half proudly lives. one of freedom, yet discipline. and even more importantly, little to no bullshit.
because until now, much of what i have attained recently has not been earned. quite frankly, it’s been handed to me. and as i have found, there’s that element of “you get what you pay for” taunting me for not thinking things through. for not pursuing things on my own accord. doing what i want to do.
albeit, my decisions are yet to be made. they’re just thoughts circling in my head, overwhelming at times. but i’m fortunate to have someone at home guiding me, advising me, strengthening me.
it’s funny to recall my life from a few years back, when i wasn’t so guarded. when life satisfaction far outweighed financial stability. who else up and quits their job, relies on a vacation-time pay out and deposit from an apartment as revenue for an indefinite time period? and now i actually have less to worry about yet far more fears? it’s odd what age will do.
but all this talking out loud with my loved ones is putting things into perspective, and getting me closer to finality. and even then, it’s not final. things can be redone. things can be re-evaluated. so really already? what’s the hold up?