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last hurrahs

the other day, a flickr contact of mine had posted photos from his friend’s going away shindig. i didn’t know the person, but i was intrigued by the series of photos. they were basic snapshots of people drinking and having a good time, saying good-byes, with the focus obviously being the man of honor who was leaving for one reason or another. and i wondered what that man’s story is/was.

i’m often captivated by photos and blog entries of people’s departures. what incites people to get up and move? a new job? a lover is afar? tired of a scene or particular environment (ahem cold weather)? or simply wanting to grab hold of a new adventure?

i, myself, had a farewell get-together a few years ago when i got up and moved to the caribbean. it was a time of flux in my life and to throw fuel on the fire, i decided to be the most impetuous i’d ever been. my job was crap, friendships with some people were falling to the wayside, and i had no attachments to anything. so i figured, why the hell not? turns out, i didn’t hold the ex-pat title for very long, but it was the perspective i needed at the time, and three months was really all it took.

it is no secret that the boy and i were toying long and hard with the notion of a cross-country move. after our first visit to san francisco together (the trip where we got engaged), we were enamored with the way of life, the people, the weather, the bike geekiness, and so forth. our most recent visit in february, though just as much of a good time, was viewed with a more critical eye. we put on the shoes of would-be residents: could the 7 × 7 mi. dimension of SF keep us occupied? could we forego our random trips throughout the year just so we could afford monthly rent in a high-priced city? would we get outside of the city much to explore other areas of california? were we willing to give up a 1200+ sq. ft. 2-bedroom apartment for maybe a 700 sq. ft. 1-bedroom place? the answer to all of those: no.

chicago, through dreary too many months out of the year to dwell on, is a fabulous city. it’s affordable, has a boatload of great restaurants, is bike friendly, and above all, has some inspiring and fun people whom i call dear friends. admittedly, our creature comforts are too numerous and important to sacrifice. perhaps if we were 7 years younger or so and not accustomed to certain ways of life, the trek and lifestyle change would be easier to stomach.

having said all that, though, i’d be lying if i said we won’t ever move. we already know our next destination. we already know it will be one ginormous endeavor. but it is a ways off yet. much to prepare for, much to anticipate.

and when the time comes, i imagine we’ll have a pretty big bon voyage bash. and maybe onlookers will wonder about our story, and perhaps, be inspired to embark on new adventures of their own.

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the temptation

it’s nagging, tugging at my heart. i haven’t felt it in quite sometime, it almost seems foreign. but how quickly it settles in and feels natural. i swore i left this tendency behind with my desire to be grown up, to be established, to be responsible.

but at this exact moment, i don’t want any of those things. and the bitch of it is, this temptation [that i’m deliberately being ambiguous about] came out of left field, and i don’t have any way of either suppressing it nor succumbing to it.

a little nugget

a certain someone told me i should write even about the little things.

so here’s one.

i have a calendar from a printing company hanging in my pod at work, and this month’s picture is a serene image of a lighthouse overlooking the ocean. being october, it is a fall-ish scene, with trees of colors other than green.

at the time i looked up at this photo this afternoon, these lyrics came streaming through my itunes, compliments of moby*:

I don’t want to swim the ocean
I don’t want to fight the tide
I don’t want to swim forever
When it’s cold I’d like to die

people who know me know that these words don’t apply to me (well, maybe that last line, when chicago is encased in three feet of snow in the middle of february). only until i was 3 years old did i hate the water, but my dear grandfather washed away any fear i may have had when my parents were out of town one weekend.

and in more recent years, i’ve taken that love of water to greater depths.

but the thought that came to mind today was that some people have never seen the ocean. some have, but shy away, and others still have a grand fear of the unknown.

what lies beneath is actually what attracts me most as i introduce myself to a world that will go unnoticed and unexplored by the majority of the masses. as depressing as that is, i’m ok with that. more for me to enjoy.

*most songs by moby tend to remind me of the water’s edge, as that was typically the only CD i had going in my CD player during my escape of 2003.

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